After I came home from Switzerland I have felt so alone. There is such an enormous difference in spending one week with so many people and suddenly being alone again.

That has made me think of this old song:
I Gave You All by Return, one of my favourite Norwegian groups back in the 80s. And Im not even a huge fan of the music of the 80s.

Words: S.Hagen, Music: S.Hagen

i feel so alone when the lights go down
when the roaring crowd has gone
walking off the stage the show is finally over
my strengh is drained my will is gone

i lay down on the empty bed
restless toughts run through my head
is it worth all this loneliness
for just one moment of bliss

chorus:
i gave you all i had tonight
all, except my soul
do you think it's strange i feel alone

the silence is so loud i'm lost within without you now
another hotel another town captured in a spell
that never can be broken it's standing on this stage
that makes me carry on

i rest my empty head
remember the crowd and what you did
giving me back the strengh to give my all

chorus

solo

chorus

i feel so alone
when the lights go down
when the roaring crowd has gone

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This feeling might also be caused by massive rainfalls and grey, depressing weather as well.
Though I already feel better than the first days after i came home and I know Ill be ok again,
but still being sick from my cold, with no appetite - I just miss having people around me. My regular friends are mostly off on vacation and people I have learned to love as my new friends are all far away. Thats the hard part of being in an international enviroment. You meet wonderful people that instantly become your good friends and that you really miss when you all separate again. Yes, Anick-Marie, Steven, Vince, Aldo, Roger, Alex, Ben, Sam, Steffi, Gunilla, Birgit, Fernando and all you other wonderful people that I love. Im talking about you!
Bless the Internet and chat tools.

But good thing about Couchsurfing is that at some party you will always see some of them again :D Some months may pass, but in the end you end up meeting them again :D In all this sad rain and loneliness - Its a wonderful world :D !!!!!
Always SOMETHING to look foreward to.